so please let me be free, i can face the truth.

Got home from school late today, stayed in school to study with LHB. man, climo is killing me. i dont get why the winds will blow here and then there and here and there. UGH. haha, Mei Chew didn't come today, so rachel and I just sat at the benches at the side gate t study, and then classmates said suvinder(sp) took attendance in class. tsk, i didnt know she'd take attendance in class. and darn i have 2 absenteeism alerts popping up on my tpjc.net already, for math remedial and friday's gp lesson. irritating. anyway. econs was fine, except when rachel showed me her new red highlighter and then i used in to draw a BIG heart on my tutorial, and after detailing it, looked up to see miss wee's powerful glare. nice one alicia. always getting caught for doodling. haha.

Lunch on sunday was random but nonetheless entertaining, away from the books and school for awhile. Bifei, Ailin, Linette, Edmund and Edwin. The two Es didn't eat though, they were full and color coded. haha.

alright gotta do my econs.

this is my life, routine and monotonous.

scream and tell everybody that you're gonna leave.

anonymous: sry took pretty long to moderate your comment! haven't been blogging for the past couple of days. So busy!):

Lance: HELLO DUDE. you have a blog??? send me the link k!(: and ya la, i have a signature sotong face sometimes, that i dont deny.

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Econs test is finally over. Was pretty alright. Went to tm with bb for consultation with Mr Tan. rather productive except that coffeebean was a tad too noisy. Mochi with bb and then back home. And i'm suppose to study hard today cus i wanna catch a movie tmr, its been so long since i last watched a movie. haha.

Jon's back from Australia i guess. texted me to meet him t return him his stuff. I'm definitely not ready to meet him actually. And it's kinda scary that he's back, cus that means i may just see him on the streets and maybe i'll faint. hahaha. okay no, i'll boil. lol. and if i see him with her, i'll laugh:D okay random.

alright i'll probably continue blogging later, gotta study):

YAY TUITION'S OVER((: i like my econs tutor. not like like, but i think he's intelligent and humourous though i bet he doesn't think of himself in that way since whenever he says smth funny, he maintains a very straight face. And i like it when he asks me about economic news around the world, and then i stare at him blankly, then he goes, "okay..... i'll tell you." blablabla. And it's interesting to hear, but NOT to read from newspapers. lazy, i know. lol. He's leaving for Oxford in September so i wont have any tutor from then to As. nevermind i shall pull through on my own(:

thinking of the theme for this friday's steamboat party at church. hmmmm. thinkthinkthink.

none but you.

whoa it has been days since i last blogged. well the past few days have been fairly fine, road run today. Linette and bigballoons totally dissed me. hahaha. walked with zizie until shawn came along and then i became a light bulb. was pretty awkward hanging around them especially since they were so lovey dovey, so moved away. walked the rest of the way back with edwin and his friends whom i met along the way while shawn and zizie trailed behind us swinging hand in hand(: ah road WALK was such a waste of time man. reached back and sat around with velma for a while, grabbed my bag and left with kris soon after.

am back home, getting prepared for tuition while many are out in town watching movies and having fun. OHWELL.

later(:

i have expectations

MR ZY. PIG! (: eh totally looks like you. hahaha.

The weekends are here!(: fridays in school are usually fine since there aren't that many tiring lessons. PE was surprisingly fun, largely because i have very sporting classmates who do their best even in hockey, and it just makes me feel that i should be part of that too(: Partly the reason why i'm going for road run next week.



Lessons were alright, but i don't exactly like blogging about how lessons went cus most of the time there's nothing interesting about them that are worth blogging about. After school, met atikah and linette to play some softball, and we were having quite alot of fun, screaming and laughing at one another, after that long break from training, we've all turned pretty rusty, but nonetheless, was just as enjoyable as before.. Until, a bunch of rowdy people just barged into the diamond when i went across the field to pick up the balls i had batted. And they simply picked up the bat and ball without asking, HELLO, common courtesy, and you don't even have that. how sad. to think TPJC has 1 hour of CME each week. One of them even took my GLOVE without asking for permission. then i looked harder and realised there were actually people whom i knew amongst that rowdy group. how disappointing. i'm sure this entry would get back to whoever was in that diamond. and i don't care if you think i'm petty or if you hate me. I don't exactly like you either. You're rude and so super self centred. Look around, people don't view you the way you THINK they do. you're just a cheap thrill. boo you.

And what's with some boys in tpjc trying to act as if they are oh-so-popular, and being so bitchy. I wonder if all boys are like that or isit just this minority in tpjc. and so what if you've got the looks? and that's a big IF. with sucky attitude, it ain't getting you anywhere. So don't come round acting all cool and stuckup. What a turn off.

what can seperate me now

realised that i forgot t blog abt this in the previous entry.

well rachel met ysabel on the train t school ystd, and from description and a blurry snapshot, she's kiddy & noisy by behaviour and carrys the same black and white check bag as the cow. haha. And i think it's b/c i saw the photo of her, that i ended up with a nightmare of Jon last night. actually not really nightmares, but images of him floating through my mind, is enough to make my heart race, not in a good way anymore, but the reverse. And then i wake up, so tired, and have bad skin, b/c of that guy. OMGOODNESS I AM SO STUPID. And i know it, but i don't know how to make myself feel better and heal faster. I want t be over it so badly. ugh.


Oh Lord you search me
You know my way
Even when i fail you
I know you love me.

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know you love me.

Your love is never failing Lord,
take me as you find me
All my fails and failures
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow, everything i believe in
Now i surrender.

All of the above except you.

pokie, when we went to watch some STUPID NDP rehearsal that was freaking boring.
bok's house, her little brother's bday party haha.
fad and i at softball gathering in j1.

was filing up all my lit stuff, those from last year too, and came across this piece of shabby work i did, which i dont know why, but fadlun marked it, and her comment was really funny. It's times like those that i miss, if we screw up assignments, it doesn't matter, how we rush out homework at the halal table, and neglect work for boys. but now, we don't do that anymore. We diligently complete our homework at home(try our best to at least), and are disallowed to submit shabby work cus we'd end up having to attend pointless structured remedials and stay in school till 7, or if you get my econs teacher, an extra hour in school i'm telling you. I miss fad's company too, her lame jokes which only she thinks is funny, her bollywood movies, and what not. But she's doing really well now, and i'm happy for her(:

I think we're all doing better this year, finally found friends whom we can really click with without having to be fake around or force ourselves t fit in. Some found boyfriends, whom they're really happy with, and cheers to that. SALLYPOK is having the time of her life, with perfect company now eh! (: miss you pokie! hahaha.

okay that was really random.

alright i've gotta get back to HMT): have no wish for miss fung to neh me again, like last week, omgoodness. didn't know she could be so... fierce? haha. cannot elaborate anymore. hope she comes in a green dress tmr, i like green. haha. AM SO TIRED, and i don't know why! tsk. shall get all my work done soon and sleep early. my eyebags are... HUGE....!

later.

I light my own fires now.

Got home rather early today. Did some human geog tutorial questions, a bit of physical, then had my dinner, while watching full house. this is like the... don't know how many time i'm watching it. and i never get sick of it haha. but it can get me quite emo sometimes, like now. ugh. totally hate the feeling.

Been getting by pretty find, never really felt alone, until now. Thinking about how i was so preoccupied with him, him and him. Now, my life is not about him anymore, it's about me. One thing for sure, no more crying. After all that shit, though sometimes i feel alone, i'm better off this way.

Much as i try not to think about him anymore, it's tough, certain places and certain things remind me of him. Happy memories & good times we had, do touch my heart, and for a second, i think he's still here with me, and then snap. reality hits me, hard. Then my heart sinks, but i tell myself, it's over and i'm having a better life now.

It's harder than i thought, to forget him. I probably never will, since no doubt, he's one guy i really loved, and THOUGHT he really loved me too. Sometimes, i even countdown the days he'd be back from Australia subconsciously, and then i realise, wait. It's none of my business anymore, it's his new girl's. and i shouldn't be anticipating his return. IT HAS GOT NOTHING T DO WITH ME.

and then, i start to fear for his return, i have absolutely no wish to see him on the streets, and worse still with a new girl. I'm still so broken from all that hell, i'm not ready to see him, and often times, when you don't wanna see someone, all the more you will.

I feel a wrenching feeling in my heart as i type this post. I know many will think i'm so super dumb to still be thinking about him. but you'd only understand if you've gone through this, and i guess many of you haven't and probably won't in your lucky lifetime. It's hard to let go, i need time. alot of time. I thought i was stronger than this. Well i'm wrong about myself i guess.

COME ON ALI YOU CAN DO THIS.

Goodnight.

Jesus I Love You

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?
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JIAYOU ALI JIAYOU!(:

done with?

Enough of the drama, goodness when will it ever stop. things get so complicated, and now i really don't know who the bitch is. I don't want to have trust issues, but it's hard. And i for one, am very bad at judging one's character. man.

linette came over to study in the afternoon and she stayed for dinner(: Oh and i cooked dinner tonight, to celebrate daryl's 13th.

alright nothing much today cus i'm really really tired and need to sleep. i have pimples all over my face now. gross.

goodnight.

wow you could see right through me.

our moms are gonna know each other, and then we're gonna be bestfriends, hahaha.
josiah, building his sandcastle!
richard trying to teach me how to fly a kite, haha! he's a pro man.
jingwei and freddie trying to fix the kite, it couldn't fly cus apparently one wing was heavier than the other,LOL.
darylkoo's 13th birthday(: actual day's 14th july. celebrated for him, and that's shwu ching:D unglam, but cute,hahaha.
omggggg joanne is super duper cute..!
eh, i'm nt that bad a kite flyer ok, though jingying laughed at the way i was flying it, i was so called moving my arm super vigorously.haaha good exercise!

our picnic mat, BEFORE more people came, still empty. after that.. no space to sit.haha
josiah jingwei and shihui! builders:D
reverend jasper and son, he was trying to draw a turtle in the sand, but i never saw it. lol
sylvia and jingwei, flying the kite:D it was so exciting. like each time the kite flew really high everyone will go YAY!hahaha
Gin, posing with a kite which never flew up, cus it was not a good kite. unevenly distributed weight or smth like that. haha. See, products made from our neighbouring country, quality.. not very good. haha.

*photos, courtesy of lhballoon(: camerawoman!:D

Kite flying was SUPER fun. and the kite looked so pretty in the sky. picnic was good, so was daryl's birthday cake, yumyum. Linette joined my church friends and i for the picnic. i hope she had fun!haha, i definitely did.

Oh oh and our mothers are about to get to know each other, it's quite funny. okay super funny. we're suppose to go for lunch tgt, like four of us. how cool huh. big balloons your mom can join us too:D they can be the balloon mothers, lol.

okay i am rushing out my econs essays and have yet to do geog tut 7.

bye, and hello new week, i am not looking forward to your arrival.

i forgot, that you don't even care.

It has been close to a month since then, and i really wonder why it still hurts so bad. Much as i try to erase you from my mind, it's hard. very.

i'm sure you'd read this, cus even if you don't, someone will tell you about it(:

if you choose to take on a judgement of my character just because i did not attend your lesson on thurs, so be it. Simply shows that you don't know me at all. SO DON'T TELL ME IN MY FACE THAT U KNOW ME VERY WELL cus obviously you don't. Don't act all righteous and go OH-IT'S-FOR-YOUR-OWN-GOOD. Much as i want to be appreciative, you don't even have the right to reprimand me to begin with. and speaking about wanting to develop my character, ERM. take a look at yours first please. telling lies all the time ( a liar never says the same thing twice you know, and i've caught you lie oh so many times. DONT U FEEL EMBARASSED??) and cooking up cock and bull stories about your students OR your own lives, doesn't make you any better than me. With all due respect, and nothing more, it seems like you have nothing better to do, but to throw your weight around. you're just a teacher, reality check. And maybe you would also like to think, why is it that students find it not worth attending your lessons. Reflect, before you come round blaming me for it.

* will blog about my picnic and kiteflying at pasiris park, tmr, since i have yet to get some photos from lhballoon:D night!

i love you more than i can say.

Oceans will part.

am gg to prepare food for our picnic at pasiris park. suppose to meet at 4pm. TO FLY KITE and i don't even own one!! and i've never flown a kite. hahahaha. alright, pictures when i get back.

bye!

you'll never let me go, through it all.

not bad selftimer shot, by linette(as in she placed the camera where it shld have been)
man, look at the one i arranged. tsk. i'm bad at this haha. then reuben said, " cool what, take photo with the flats." hahahaha.

relaxing GP lesson which we really love. discussing the environment became discussing dramas. haha. VELMA!!((: omgoodness my favourite junior, isn;t she cute.
LH BALLOON(((: us sitting in the hot sun taking photos lol.
when the clouds came in(:

School was good, rather relaxing except for lit lesson, but i can't say what i want about the lesson here since i bet even teachers read my blog now. nothing really negative anyway. PE was like.. eee. cus i dont like hockey, simply bc i'm bad at it. hahaha, i cannot coordinate my legs and hands and the damn stick!!): human geog was fine, got back our test where nicholas and i actually got the highest in class, but just so you know, it was a freaking JUST PASS. lol. add my physical part, sure fail. hahahah. after school, met velma, went to play some softball, like just throwing etc. Was so super fun, since i havent touched the glove in a long time, and i must say, i havent exactly lost my strength, and i am so thankful for that. ran around the field like an idiot but i enjoyed myself alot. took photos at the stadium, waited for mom. linette came over in the later afternoon to study for a while, before i went to church, and she headed home. Met goofy for dinner at aljunied, and then back to church.

I really need to thank tpjcbitchh and whoever hates me, for helping me realise who really has my back, and who i've taken forgranted or misunderstood. Mending broken friendships and making new and better friends is what i will do now. Things are getting clearer, and better. of cus, tpjcbitchh and whoever may come along to try to stir trouble, no doubt. but true friendships will withstand that. And there are people who care for me. so take that tpjcbitchh.

encouragement from friends, really help. THANK YOU SO MUCH<3

bitterness, the root that ruins the garden of peace.

"bitterness only consumes the vessel that contains it, and for me to permit biterness to control or infect my life in any way whatsoever would be to allow those who imprisoned me to take even more than what they've already taken."

you can say what you want, i'll be fine. I'm bigger than that(:

and if you think you know me oh so well, just by reading my blog, i'm telling you, then you don't know me at all.

SCHOOL'S JUST STARTING TO GET FUN HUH.

goofball's attempt to make me laugh, it worked! read the anwser, it's so super funny, and actually correct. haha. click on the photo for a clearer picture! :D

edited.

being plagued by nightmares of jon for 3 weeks is not enough, LEAVE ME ALONE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. just as i boot you out of my thoughts, you force your way back in. I have no wish to prove myself that i'm not wrong for disliking that girl, bc people have eyes to SEE. and blame YOURSELF for it. you made all these happen. don't try to act protective, cus this act will wear off eventually, just like how it did on me. barely less than a year was the maximum you could go. really disappointing.

the comment may not have been by you afterall, but all these things are happening, and you very well know why.

oh and yes i do have a stat counter, someone viewed my blog 30 times in the past one hour, wow you sicko, or you don't have a life. i didnt know my blog was that attractive. and i did not deny that i bitch. I DO BITCH, who doesnt please, but if you do, be bold. give your name or just SCRAM(:

BOKBOK I LOVE YOU, THANKS FOR STANDING UP FOR ME. hello next issue 3 of tpjcbitchh. you can't bring us down.

TPJC BITCH

TPJCBITCHH07.

wow, thanks for featuring my friends and i in issue2, goodness i am SO honoured. run me down, try to spin stories about us, you really really need a life. DONT TRY TO BREAK US UP. THE HARDER U TRY THE MORE IT WONT HAPPEN. and at the end, you are the fool. I wonder what satisfaction you get by doing this. But i take it that you;re just so jealous of us, that your life is one boring, small black hole. you need to see a doctor. And as for me being single, does it concern you? Thanks for being concern for me actually, but i'm doing fine, i've got great friends and family, so what if i don't have a boy? I'm happy this way(: WoW, amazing how all your issues (2) revolve largely around tian and us, are we the only people you know? if yes, that's SO sad, you need more friends seriously. widen your social circle, maybe you wont be so unhappy(;

*just so you know, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS WHICH INCLUDES TIAN are prettier than you, for one very good reason, they have class, and grace, unlike you. you're probably old and wrinkly cus you're SO unhappy. so don't come round critisising how they/we look. you're not even any good yourself(:

ADONAI

2 pianist, cus joshua can't make it to play the guitar!
kok eng singinggggg.
the clown who sounded like monster in one line of one of the songs and totally made us laugh non-stop for the next 10mins. KE was totally shocked, his expression was like, ?????!!!!!
okay yes, unglam, whatever. tpjcbitchh can comment on this photo, i don't care.
jeff and i slacking while the rest tried to figure out how to arrange the music!:D

one more prac on friday!

I AM SO SUPER TIRED. and i'll be spending 12hours in school tmr, till 7pm): jefferson commented on my horrendous eyebags when we were having practice, but what can i do. I'm a pathetic JC student who has no time to care for my skin/face/appearance. I'm ageing,fast. Alevels better be worth it.

okay i really really need to sleep.

bye.

worrying about all the wrong things.

So Expensive Nothing T O See Also! - sentosa for you.

Generally Acceptable and Reliable Until Departure and Arrival ! - garuda for you.

Sex In the Air - SIA(:

courtesy of Miss Wee, during our 1st ever rather not-so-uninteresting econs lesson.haha.

oh and during human geography, we were discussing fertility and population growth, and mr sahlan randomly said something about, " next time women wont even breast feed their own children! they will ask the COW to breast feed their own children!!" and we just burst out laughing. i don't know if the rest know who the cow is. i THINK they do, but anyway, rachel and i totally couldnt stop laughing, and it made quite alot of sense since the cow's boobs are really huge, that i must give her credit for(:

and as for geography test, am half dead, half of my physical paper was undone, i blame it on poor time management. shall not elaborate further.

went to Enqi's house where she helped me with lit, very useful(: at least now i know what i need to do to revise systematically. spent about 2hrs 15mins there. REALLY GOTTA THANK HER MAN. i absorbed like a sponge. okay no i wrote down whatever she said cus i'm dory. short term memoryyyyy.

ohoh picnic and kiteflying this saturday with YAFers at pasiris park. yay yay yay. and YAF meeting on friday night, and worship practice tmr night. AND MATH REMEDIAL on thurs evening)): tsk. oh and i'm attending the climo talk tmr. LOL. hope it'll improve my very bad climo topic.

alright gotta rush out the 3 econs essays i owe miss wee lest she glare at me tmr and make me stay back till 8 to finish it.

BYE(:

take take take it all<3

just got home from ssc, i feel rather accomplished since i seriously studied from 1 to 6pm. Met Cheryl Jialin and Lianghong for lunch at 12, then headed to the library, took out geography, and.. time passed really quickly.

got a little restless in between but managed to keep still since the thought of failing tmr's test really scared me. oh and okay i did pause occasionally to day dream about B. but what can i do! he's definitely more interesting than malthus and meadows. haha, then the 3 of them left at 5 for a movie at Leisure Park, while i continued to mug alone for another hour, again with the motivation of not failing the geography test tmr.

Was super hungry, couldn't take it, so went to eat at 6. alone. wow not bad, i think i grew independent overnight.hahaha. had fish and chips, miso soup, and zac and cody on my itouch to entertain me. mom picked me up at 7, and home sweet home.

I've gotta continue studying for tmr's test cus i HAVE NOT FINISHED STUDYING. there's SO much to study and lazy me only started studying yesterday,tsk. ohwell. shall try my best.

toodles.

what kind of boy, and girl?

tsk i'm still feeling very sore about it, despite it being 3weeks since.
GET OVER IT ALI. GET OVER IT. somebody help me.

Surfing through friendster, then saw how some tpjcians actually know that ysabel girl. then her face popped up in my laptop screen, omg, almost died of fright. i think she can compete with the cow, or wait. with s tinge of biasness, the cow looks better than her!Ailin's damn funny, said she looks like CHUCKY. i totally laughed out loud. She needs a better dp. okay i'm mean i know. But she ain't nice at all either. the guy, needless to say. ULTIMATE LOSER. oh ya he's the loser, not bok and i! :D tpjcbitchh07 should target people like them not offspring and us! poof. Be more constructive in your critisisms please.

you know, i really want to be mature about this whole episode, but it's tough. really it is. It's easy to say, oh dont be bothered by them, forget it. but i feel so sick and disgusted each time i think about it. I need time i guess.

studying with Cheryl and Jialin at SSC in the afternoon. need to study for my geography test. darn.

bye(:

falling over my feet, under water. i need oxygen.

omgoodness 3rd time i'm blogging today, shows how slow my sunday has been passing. studying population geography the entire afternoon was no joke, almost bored me to death. Am thus thankful for occasional interjections, instant messaging on the internet with nice and encouraging people, who constantly tell me, JIAYOU(:



waited and waited for 7pm to come, and yes! walked to kembangan CC to meet the rest, but the courts were full, so sat around and waited somemore, talked and played with Chloe who came!!:D She's so adorable seriously. Then half of half a court, that makes one quarter only, was available, but there were like 9 of us, and we were to play with some disgusting ah-bengs and girls who totally had ZERO features of a girl, no boobs, no sweet voice, she totally sounded like a man, and was super duper rough, had ugly red highlights in her hair, and spat wherever she went, so basically the court was filled with her spit, and her friends too! and they were smoking, it was so unbearable, so choking. So decided not to stay around there, went for a jog at the track next to the CC, successfully completed a 2.4km run which left me gasping(omg the word makes me crack, i'm reminded of tian!hahaha,and no girl,you're not a horse!whoever said that can go stuff her mouth with a smelly gym sock) for breath, and unable to play bball for the next half an hour, omg im weak i know. So sat down and rested, talked about random things, and then cheryl sprained her ankle! ): poor girl.



Have yet to make concrete study plans with anyone for tmr, it's either linette and whoever, or Cheryl Jialing((: hmmm. OR i'll probably stay alone at home if mom bans me from stepping out of the house. i hope that doesn't happen.



Am going to go for a swim tmr, i need the exercise badly.

tmr, study study study): youth day my ass.

i really miss NZ, away from.. school and Alevels.

what i've been looking for

This never fails to put a smile on my face, i miss you guys so much!<3

that's just one thing that i know

In the midst of revising population geography, rather uninteresting, but do-able(:

Basketball tonight at the CC with yaf, church today was good, i definitely needed some confirmation and healing, that's what i came home with(: iloveyoujesus, i do.

okay to be continued, better get over with my revision first.

later.

TAKE A BOW

But you put on quite a show.
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go,
Curtain's finally closin'.
That was quite a show.
Very entertainin'.
But it's over now.
Go on and take a bow.

And the award for the best lie goes to you!
For makin' me believe
That you could be faithful to me.
Let's hear your speech.

How 'bout a round of applause?
Standin' ovation

Skip to the end to find the meaning.

Had ice cream with xiaowei at parkway before heading to meet the rest, along with Jiewei's cake which we got from bangawan solo. is tht how you spell it? aiya u know which cake shop. I ONLY CHOSE THAT BECAUSE OF THE PICTURE ON IT. taste wise...

Dinner last night at Beach Cabana was good, the food especially. Except for the fact that it's so little for the price you pay. pretty good ambience, with a DJ and song dedications. Celebrated Jiewei's 18th, with a beach babe cake! 7 hot beach babes. haha. Oh and He;s got really sweet friends who dedicated a song to him, along with a message that which went,

"stop being a bitch and start studying."

Was pretty tired actually, i think many of us were, either from an entire week of mugging or rugby which the boys played after school. futhermore, nothing much to do at ECP after dinner. Walked back through the underpass to parkway before bidding farewell and going our seperate ways. till whenever, it's mugging time.

Study sessions with friends is what's gonna keep me BZ for the next couple of MONTHS, since mom says, you better focus and study. Don't go out and play anymore. ): no choice, gotta listen. nevermind la, at least can study tgt(:

As for tpjcbitchh07, whoever wrote that should seriously think of her own future, you've got to prepare for As, so start studying and stop trying to create drama, it's not gonna be good for you, though of cus at this point of time, many will want to watch you fail, whoever u are.

me and you.

I'm very glad that even people whom i hardly know, have my back. greatly appreciated. thankyou(:





Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
but they were,
lessons learned.





frankenstein essay awaits me, and i'm supposed to study before going out tonight. Shall start after i finish blogging. Oh and i only realised today that, frankenstein isn't the ugly green monster on children book covers! Frankenstein's actually the scientist who CREATED the monster. revelation.... lol.

[offspring:Dmotherhen,piglet,loser1,loser2,balloons] you have a problem with us?

Linette stayed over last night, read my lit notes till about 12plus, was lying on my bed, and then the notes fell on me, and i fell asleep.haha, and that woman studied her sova thingy till 1plus, before creeping into bed next to me. we're amazing, squeezed on my tiny single bed. OHOH and in the midst of studying, i decided that my fringe was too long, so linette cut it for me. And after cutting mine, she looked in the mirror and figured hers was too long too. So snap snap snap,


ta-da. both of us have new "fringe cuts" by the oh so professional LONG HAIRED BALLOON<3

the love

Over it(:

Now i look at this, and feel little. Stupidly sweet surprises i actually don't regret doing, because i know, at that moment, i enjoyed it. The ring's gone, so is the book, which cost me a whooping 50bucks, but gone with the wind, as with my memories. I'm moving forward, quicker than you think. Okay this is so random. I think the tiredness is getting to me. Studying the entire day is no joke. Linette and I are gg to get our hair cut tgt soon(((: yay. i desperately need a haircut, else, my fringe's gonna stay up(and i look like a toot)until i get one. then again, beats "she bangs" :D

night people.

wanting to belong there.

Just completed Great Ex essay, still in the midst of studying, at SSC's library. Pretty condusive(: mom dropped linette and i off, then had lunch, and did work, til now. bok just joined us. Studied with the balloons yesterday at dome, at parkway ystd. was quite noisy there, so changed location today. haha. Oh and last night, left parkway at 7, fiona and linette came over to my hse to continue studying,lol. i wasnt exactly studying. more of completing all that homework that is almost due. the list never ends. I need to do well for As. whether i enjoy the process or not, that doesnt matter. I am actually dying to go out, like OUT. but nah not anytime soon.

alright gotta get back to work. a long list awaits me......

BYE!(: