what can seperate me now

realised that i forgot t blog abt this in the previous entry.

well rachel met ysabel on the train t school ystd, and from description and a blurry snapshot, she's kiddy & noisy by behaviour and carrys the same black and white check bag as the cow. haha. And i think it's b/c i saw the photo of her, that i ended up with a nightmare of Jon last night. actually not really nightmares, but images of him floating through my mind, is enough to make my heart race, not in a good way anymore, but the reverse. And then i wake up, so tired, and have bad skin, b/c of that guy. OMGOODNESS I AM SO STUPID. And i know it, but i don't know how to make myself feel better and heal faster. I want t be over it so badly. ugh.


Oh Lord you search me
You know my way
Even when i fail you
I know you love me.

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know you love me.

Your love is never failing Lord,
take me as you find me
All my fails and failures
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow, everything i believe in
Now i surrender.