toodles, for now.

say bye to the 4 balloons! i have no idea why i'm ali BALLOONY. but anyway. we're all going out of town during the same period, which is great cus we'd come back around the same time:D SHALL MEET WHEN WE'RE BACK OK! take care loves(LONG HAIRED BALLOON AND BIG BALLOONS!) rachel bok will be with me in NZ<3

am all packed and almost ready to go. church tmr, lunch with family and jon<3, back home to get my stuff, off to the airport at about 3pm(: will be back late next saturday night.

till then,
ciao.

as we grow up.

coffee at tcc with shermaine and shavonne, sat for quite awhile, talking about chung cheng life, ex-boyfriends, stupid mistakes, and our dumb school life right now. ailin joined us around 6, went to JCO, where ailin and vonne claimed some free donuts along with some weird tasting donuts. like cheese donut. uh. haha. then met jon at the station, we left for church, had dinner at kallang kfc with the YAF. went back to church for movie night, but they were showing some thriller/murder show. Didnt wanna scare myself, plus wasnt exactly in a mood to watch any movie. so went home with Jon. stopped somewhere near my house, talked about so many things, and how life is changing for the both of us. Our relationship has long gone beyond just i like you and you like me, and we'd be happy this way. There's so many other things that we have to take into consideration as to which direction our rls is moving towards. It's like we've grown up overnight, by like 10 years or smth. haha. But im glad we talked it out(: praying for better days ahead(: i love you<3

MY pig(:

when everything changes

just packed my suitcase for NZ trip. Am leaving this Sunday, will be back next saturday(: damn it's winter there so have gotta pack quite alot of stuff. Itinerary(certain days) sounds interesting. we get to go to their college and meet the students there, attend lessons with them and interact(: day4, BOOHOO. field work.eeek. haha. but bokbok and i will have fun(((: hee.

coffee tmr with shavonne shermaine and ailin! finally(: and then dinner with church YAF, and then movie night in church:D yay i get to meet jon too(: My Poe and Othello essays are still undone. Will attempt them tmr.

tooodleeess.

I MISS JON. he's at his workplace sleeping while i'm lazing around at home, doing nothing.

iloveyou.

you're so LAME.

96542247 -
cow and chicken for only $1. hybrid(: good buy!

i saw the hotbabe photo too! some girls in the row in front of me during econs lecture were laughing about it, i found it hilarious too:D gosh, why do people think that just because rachel laughed at the photo, that means she did it.stupid. it's also not right for ANYONE to go around claiming that she did it just cus she laughed at the photo very loudly. lame shit. yes you, can't imagine a BOY spreading such stupid rumours. girly bitch.

oh yes and whoever that anonymous person is, you're dumb and have no balls. why hide behind a stupid anonymous sms? " i tell you my name when it's successful k." get a life, seriously. i pity you. Is this how you need attention? Wish granted!

96542247, call now(:

proverbs.

Love is about giving, not recieving. Now it's my turn. Decisions made can be life-changing, i must say we've moved on to the next stage of a relationship. it's no longer, i love you and you love me, for now. No. We've to plan for our future. Short chat with Pastor Jasper, really made me realise that, what we're going through, is simply a test of our relationship. time and distance. It's not the 6weeks. It's the perpetual distance, each time he flies. and it's not just 1 flight. or one time in Australia. but i'll walk this road with him. Cus that's what love is. He's been there for me, now it's my turn to be there for him<3

say ok

So tell me when it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright?
Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away

Will you wipe my tears away
Will you hold me closer
When it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright?
Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away

piggy,pig,piglet

math test in the morning, pass-able but definitely no A): but fine i didnt study for it. so ya. i have so much homework piled on, Othello and Poe essay. Have yet to pack for my NZ trip. Next week will be geography study week. Econs is fine, but lit's killing me.. SIGH! i don't even feel like touching it seriously. okay fine i have to.

jon and i spent the afternoon sleeping like pigs. slept slept and slept more, till now. 22nd june. i am not looking forward to it. we fight, like real hard, and then we get through it. so what's 6 weeks right? a long time. sighsigh.

anyway, shall go start on my othello essay now, or i never will.

<3

life is a rollercoaster

econs tuition today was surprisingly productive(: had worship practise in the morning, 9am. was super tired, but made it there by 930. haha. it ended at 10 la. mom waited for me. then had breakfast with my folks(((: got home, plopped on the sofa and slept, slept and slept more. cancelled math tuition just to sleep somemore.haha. okay church tmr, 8am for practise since we didnt do much today. wow i have to wake up at 630 tmr!!): okay anyway. am watching indiana jones with the church peeps tmr. haha. it better be good, though critics say otherwise. alright will upload more pics of YAF outing tmr(((:

goodnight!

is this the end.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding
But these scars will stay forever
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

you were one moment away.

you're not the only one who is SIAN. i said i wanted to meet you. you say you have no mood. but you have the mood to go out and eat. do what you want, i don't give a shit. i'm not free tmr night already. have good fun with your airforce friends. now you're too good for me. happy 11th month anniversary.

BYE.

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math teacher just msged me to say that i have to take my math test next tuesday at 9am and if i dont have mc i'll get 0 for the test. doesnt matter to me whether they record a zero or not, since it doesnt count. and i'm still gonna take the test eventually and be graded for it, in which i'll know my own progress. apart from stupid correlation, i know i'm fine. got hypothesis testing sorted out today.

22nd June 2008 : 1year anniversary, and Jon's departure to Australia for 6 freaking weeks. airforce training): how timely.

i'll miss him, but what choice do i have. 6 weeks will pass real quick,that's what i'll tell myself, though deep in my heart i know it's a long long long time. It came as a shock cus i didnt think he'd be leaving this quick. just a month's time away. wow. but never mind i shall take his leave positively. Shall concentrate on preparing for Prelims! and he'd be back when prelims start(: just nice. The initial seperation will hurt the most, but i'll be strong. i will. it's hard but i have to.

and i cry alone tonight.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zEQ00M-ZaF0

funny soccer moments. zomg, it is damn funny. hahaha.

happy birthday linette!<3

chung cheng! yes that's jiewei(:
group photo after settler's.
the boys.
promoting NOKIA!
other direction.haha
BOKBOK and kristal!
fiona aka BIG BALLOONS
birthday girl!<3, and BB!
miss sunshine there in the middle(;


Linette's party was fun(: stupid board games, like something something boss. i can't even remember the name. but it was freaking boring, only zhang was enjoying himself. he's power hungry. dying to be boss. ahhaha. played this animal sound game, that was quite fun! and funny. the place was really noisy with so many people. but we had our share of fun(: played taboo too. so many more photos but for now i've only got these few. will upload more when i get them! had to leave settler's by 9 cus another group was coming in, but dilly dallied till about 930, stood around outside for quite a while, while the boys took photos etc. i didnt know boys like the camera! haha. took really long to decide where to go next, so walked to central mall, settled by clarke quay, took photos, stood around and laughed, at each other. okay one really funny instance.



boys: eh linette go sit the bouncing thing la!(you know the one at clarkequay)

xiaowei and zhang: we go with you. set.

Linette: NO WAY! I DONT WANT.

Shanyong(speaks softly): eh we buy her free drinks until she drunk then bring her go la.

Boys: eh ah wang. she's just in front of you leh!!tsk!

shanyong: ops. shit.

everybody starts laughing. he's damn blur in a funny way. hahaha. okay so xinyi and i left shortly after that, ive gotta go to church tmr. fiona and linette went off with the guys to home club i think. and they're still there now. haha. bet they're enjoying themselves!

alright i'm sleepy already.

goodnight.

love won't break me

just got off the phone with xiaowei. small boy will always be small boy, a leopard never changes it spots. omg, he's damn funny. haha. anyway. linette's party's gonna be hot(: theme: patterns

day out with linette. zomg we talked till 7plus, and we didnt even know it was that late. haha.
she's coming over to my hse tmr(:

school was as boring as usual. am contemplating on skipping school tmr, really tired. plus there's gp essay writing practice. darn. but i'm looking forward to PE!): hmm. shall just go. i need to lose weight.

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I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
but i kind of like it

*

half alive.

my neighbour just passed away at home, it's so sad, cus i used to be really close to her, like go to her house and play when i was young. and her son is only my age, to suffer the pain of losing someone so dear, especially when As are just around the corner, is so pitiful. some people just came to collect her body. i guess, the family expected her departure, since she has been sick for so long. some nerve problem, so she can't talk properly or eat properly. But then again, i think it's a relief for her. no more suffering. i'll miss her.

"end times are nearing" . i wonder how true that is. As far as the weather/global climate is concerned, i believe so. the hundreds and thousands of lives taken away by unexpected natural disasters in the past 8 years, the atrocity of terrorist attacks and what not. What is the world coming to? yes, no life is insignificant. and life is too short for us to not live life now. We may just be gone tmr, not knowing/experiencing the better things there are in this life. And right now, as i continue to slog for As, is that university admission going to make life fuller for me, and allow me to enjoy whatever's left of life, before endtimes? i hope it will, i have no wish to slog for nothing when i could very well be enjoying my time now.

it's okay that we're dying, but i need to survive, tonight.

fake barbie.

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Am excited about linette's party this coming saturday night! i like eventful weekends.
day out today with carmen was exceptionally good. caught up alot, and talked about life,love,and more.

am having a terrible headache, and shall thus retire for the night.

bye,.

moo you.

Anyway. We already have a medical breakthrough in TPJC: a cow that walks and talks. Sadly, medical science still has its limitations and boundaries, every single word that comes out of the mouth of the cow is utterly unintelligible and a cornucopia of garbled rubbish. And above all, the mutated cow is inherently fond of producing mangled sex sounds that are emitted every now and then through the mouth that is uncomfortably wedged beneath its large and ugly snout.There, put that in your pipe and smoke it.

hahaha. excerpt from rachel bok's blog. omg seriously, we need a cowherd to capture that madcow that's on the loose in tpjc, and put her back where she belongs in old mac donald's farm.hahaha.

school was fine, but tiring. ugh which days aren't anyway! ): after school was totally unproductive, i did nothing. bubbling with bigballoons(fiona), linette and bokbok was good though. sat around till 3 before i settled down with my geography notes in front of me. stared and stared. nothing went in. zen came along, totally animated.funny. he left, atikah and linette came over, talked till 5, and off we went to lit.

that's how my day ended. what a life. haha. but i'm happy.

can't wait to go to NZ.

bye.

come fly with me; lets fly away.

reuben
low yixiang!

omg don't you think they look rather alike! and their actions and the way they behave, the way they speak. goodness. super alike. shuhua would totally agree with me on this! Since i met reuben on day 1 of softball(when the juniors came in), straight away i thought of yixiang. hahaha. haven't met that guy in a long time. wonder what he has been up to. must be all his nonsense though:D Speaking of which, DL has to meet up soon! more than a month of not seeing u guys sucks. we need to catch up since our lives are moving so fast, i can hardly catch up with my own. will be planning something soon. gosh i love planning stuff: D

mother's day today! bought mommy a mug. a pretty mug(: i love mommy<3 align="center">

Jon has decided to join the airforce(: am praying hard he'd get thru all that tough training! but he'll have to go to Australia for 1month in july/august. my prelim period!): and if he gets pass the test over there, he'll have to go to australia again next year for 2 months!!)): nevermind, we'll both study together, since BOTH of us need to study! pilot training is no joke. haha. am excited for him. bet he's more excited than me.ahha. come on boyfriend! i have faith in you!you can get pass all the training!no matter how tough, always remember your goal, and our future.

change the weather,still together, till the
end<3

it'd be monday tmr already!goodness. time flies. ah. can't wait to go to new zealand, get out of Singapore for a while at least.

alright i wanna sleep. so many pimples on my face. need more rest(: goodnight.

in this life; tp tp AYE AYE!<3

danial, fuad and hakim.
our tpjc softball blackbook!
jayne and xiaowei have food in their mouth!
finally swollowed their food,and smiled:D
<3<3
tp tp, AYEAYE
shuhua!

reuben is damn cute.look at his expression
pranesh shar and reuben diligently filling in the blackbook
comical hungry atikah.
junior boys!

Softball farewell dinner was pretty fun, a million thanks to the j1s for their effort! Shu hua and xinyi, the game masters :D hanis’s mom for the food, and every j1 who contributed in the senior’s blackbook(: it was heartwarming. Played clownish games like pairing a girl and guy and drawing lots to 2 body parts respectively, and it was lame. I was to step on xiaowei’s stomach. That’s how clownish it was. Did the friendship dance like super a lot of times((: Danial, Fuad and Hakim performed, gosh boys who play the guitar are hot seriously. It’s so cool. And Danial sang so so super well, goodness. Haha. I’m gonna miss almost everyone. But pranesh reminded me! I’m suppose to organize one more softball dinner! So I guess this will probably be one of the last, especially with the juniors. So I’ll make it big and I’ll make it good(: and I hope everyone will turn up. Will start planning. Till then, look out for details about it ok, softballers? (:

Alright I’ve gotta go to church tmr at 9am. So I really should sleep now.

Goodnight!

we ride.

omg econs test this morning was.. tiring. super tiring. every 3 sentences that i wrote, i'd stone for like 2 mins. and eventually, i couldnt complete the paper!HAHA. whatever. at least it's over(: and handover's over too. finally. enough of softball drama here, so shall not go into the details of what happened on friday. softball farewell dinner tonight, am pretty excited about it surprisingly. the juniors put in alot of effort to organise this thing i heard, and i DO APPRECIATE IT, hello. So yup i'm going. shall upload pictures of tonight tmr!(:

okay here's the yay part of ystd(((:

JON'S AIRFORCE INTERVIEW WAS SUCCESSFUL WHICH = HE'S GONNA BE A TRAINEE PILOT!!<3 it's so freaking hard to get in and he got in. omg, cool. he passed 3 stages of tests, the medical, aptitude, and finally the interview. he has to sign a 10 yr contract with the army this coming monday. oh and he automatically goes to officer school, which is cool too:D but he'd have to go to Australia for 2 months during his training. ohwell. but he loves planes and bla so. yep. shall be supportive(: no more green uniform!!(((: now it'd be the white collar shirt, and dark blue pants! hot. so smart looking please:D

alright i've gotta go get ready, else i'm gonna be late.

toodles.

Lord i hope this day is good

can't imagine i'm actually blogging just before i go to school. haha. finally it's friday. the weekends are here(((((: omg today better be a good day. i expect it to be.

<3

bokiebokbok

k-onstantine.blogspot.com

rachel bok's blog! omg this is going to be damn interesting(((: she's definitely entertaining and of cus, a good writer<3 loveyouwhateverballoon.hahaha.

no more drama.

wow so much drama on the forum, totally unneccessary, but i didn't know my blog was that popular!(: but i should make this clear. i never meant to insult the entire boys team or whatsoever. I only questioned nicholas's leadership and his alone. So don't take it personally. but it's good that he has very extremely supportive juniors and 1 j2 to back him up, not being sacarstic here. And i don't see why i'm wrong of blogging about what happened ystd since this is MY diary, and I BLOG ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO. no one can stop me. i mean that's what a blog is for. to talk about your daily occurences. So yup.

Spending time thinking of what is/has been happening in softball is totally a waste of my time, and this shall be the last entry i'l ever write about it. For one thing, this really showed me who are real and who are fake. nontheless, it takes a million kinds of people with different characters to make up this world, and yep i've gotta live with that. So whatever with whoever is unhappy with me, and atikah for that matter. We're done thinking about this. it's plain stupid.

i'm just really glad it's gonna be over tmr(: sick and tired of getting upset over such stupid things which aren't even worth my time.

softball drama better end here b/c i no longer wanna be part of it. AND IF ANYONE TRIES TO DRAG ME IN AGAIN, TO HELL WITH U.

edited.
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In typing that blog post my intention was merely to question orhjiao’s
capabilities as a captain and leader. Pls note that my intention was never to
drag the BOYS in. The gist of my previous post is the CAPTAIN, not the TEAM. As
such, I wish to clarify the fact that this whole situation is between orhjiao
and me, the boys are NOT implicated. I hope this is clear to
everyone.

I never dragged the boys team in, so I really have no
idea why on earth the boys should wish to implicate themselves. That’s all I
have to say.

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love is the debt we owe one another.

shut up and drive.

GOODNESS. TODAY WAS SERIOUSLY TERRIBLE. ESPECIALLY TRAINING. OKAY HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED. ZILLION OMG, I AM STILL FUMING MAD.

So we, the j2 girls went down to HELP out with the j1s training. Which we did, we each took a junior to correct their throwing etc. then they did side toss batting, seriously, how many fielders do you need? more over, the j1s are the ones who need to practise their fielding, i mean we're not the ones going to play for nationals next year. So what's wrong with us sitting down by the side?? and never mind, STUPID GUY CAPTAIN, i have no idea what business is it of his, had the audacity to scream in our faces that we had horrible attitude and he has tolerated us for very long, hello, who has been tolerating who?? we have been tolerating his freaking gay moodswings! and and he said we didnt fight for nationals and didnt put in effort at all?? who is he to judge? he is not us! and one thing, we DID PUT IN EFFORT. and anyway, he has no right to critisise us, please look at his own boys team, if he was a good leader and so he claims, they would have won a trophy. please, in the end, they are last too. i mean, if he's really that good, prove it. but sorry, no more chances alr, you lost the last match u guys played today too. AND HE'S HAVING PROBLEMS DEALING WITH HIS OWN TEAM, SO DON'T BE A KPO AND COME AND STICK YOUR ASS INTO OUR AFFAIRS. loserish spoilt brat. and and, OH THE GIRLS HAD TEAM TALK without the STILL CURRENT captain and vice cap, and other j2 seniors. shows what respect you have for us, so since you don't have any, i see no reason why i should respect YOU. after all, today, youre still merely a SELF PROCLAIMED i repeat SELF PROCLAIMED captain. and even when you officially do become captain, boy i pity whoever's under you, and then again i'm glad i'm not one of them. AND HELLO, you complain that we do nothing, after the boys came back, straight away took up the field, we freaking sat there like idiots while the selfproclaimed captain took HER girls for a team talk, for like 1hr?? and we did nothing. finally decided to walk out on training. oh wait, training?uh.. bubble tea was so much better than watching 2 disgusting guys pitch. (not junwei or dianzhuang.they;re nice. the other 2.)

to think i missed softball. well now i dont, im really glad i'm out of it. i'm gonna miss some teammates but definitely not you,you and you. go form a team of your own, and go win 1st in the nationals!((((((: HURHURHUR.

* as to the new self proclaimed, soon to be official captain, and vice cap, (of the girls team) congratulations, and i hope you prove yourself to be who you THINK you are, and win 1st in nationals. i sincerely wish you LUCK cus you'll definitely need it, and bye. after this friday i hope i never ever see you and you again.

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finally vented out all my anger.
i shall go study my econs now. already wasted an entire afternoon doing , nothing.

burst your bubble

omg long wait between end of school at 1pm and lit at 5pm was damn fun.hahaha. sat at the benches at the E block, initially with rachel and farihin, completed my econs case study 6 PROPERLY, before getting distracted by people who came by!(((: huangeng,atikah,jeremy,linette,JASON, omg that clown,hahaha.hilarious. was so tired from all the laughing, went for lit after that, sat with atikah, we were totally not in the mood to write, but managed to do so eventually after seeing how jason started off so quickly. ohoh and i was teasing linette when i asked jeremy to help me buy smth from the cafe, and omg it was super funny, i was saying so much and then turned around, saw him standing at the staircase listening. and all of us burst out laughing!hahaha. great company(((:

sigh i'm having a stomachache)): and there's physical fitness test tmr.. darn. i seriously hate 2.4km, and am not over that issue about it atikah.hahaha.

alright i'm going to sleep alr. goodnight.

busy busy busy.

just came up to my room. watched baseball for the past 1 1/2 hours. NY yankees vs Seattle mariners. it just made me miss softball so much more): i didn't think i'd miss softball this much. well now i know i do. i'm gonna miss coach, i'm gonna miss training under the hot sun, i'm gonna miss some of my teammates. ohwell.

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shopping with jon tmr(: there's so much i wanna buy:D

the weather is freaking hot seriously. goodness.

Next sat's gonna be a busy one.

econ's test in the morning,
elyna's wedding in the afternoon/evening
softball farewell dinner at night

am dreading the following week to come. sigh. am already sick of school, and studying. I NEED A BREAK): Got our NZ itinery on friday, well that's gonna totally be a STUDY GEOGRAPHY THOROUGHLY trip. With that, i BETTER get my A. darn.

oh am taking up an internship at an event organising firm after my As(((: that's my motivation i guess((: Dad already got me a place, so i'm quite excited about it:D weeee. well it's something i've always wanted to do, so yay me(:

all good things come to an end

i think we're done.