half alive.

my neighbour just passed away at home, it's so sad, cus i used to be really close to her, like go to her house and play when i was young. and her son is only my age, to suffer the pain of losing someone so dear, especially when As are just around the corner, is so pitiful. some people just came to collect her body. i guess, the family expected her departure, since she has been sick for so long. some nerve problem, so she can't talk properly or eat properly. But then again, i think it's a relief for her. no more suffering. i'll miss her.

"end times are nearing" . i wonder how true that is. As far as the weather/global climate is concerned, i believe so. the hundreds and thousands of lives taken away by unexpected natural disasters in the past 8 years, the atrocity of terrorist attacks and what not. What is the world coming to? yes, no life is insignificant. and life is too short for us to not live life now. We may just be gone tmr, not knowing/experiencing the better things there are in this life. And right now, as i continue to slog for As, is that university admission going to make life fuller for me, and allow me to enjoy whatever's left of life, before endtimes? i hope it will, i have no wish to slog for nothing when i could very well be enjoying my time now.

it's okay that we're dying, but i need to survive, tonight.