the pieces of my heart are missing you.

3 years ago!(:

See the pyramids along the Nile

Watch the sunrise from the tropic isle

Just remember darling all the while

You belong to me

in your presence

wow, after so long, i'm finally blogging again. the traffic in my head is killing me.

1.MOM, BIG WAR WITH HER
2.FRIEND(S), UNREASONABLE
3.ALEVELS (like duh huh. haha)

well, okay the war with mom, needless to say, has left me with nothing but displeasure and emotional scarring.haha. but what can i do. still living under her roof anyway, and for the love of God, i'd resist the temptation of going against her any further. All i can do now is try my best to be as independent as i can.

Alevels, just study ali, study. Do your part and let God do the rest(:

Friend,friends,friend. hmm. friendships are so fragile, so hard to handle. especially when i don't know what's on her mind, there's nothing i can do though i know something is wrong. But i've come to a point where i dont want to do things her way, and to have to please her all the time. it's tiring, and suffocating. Sometimes i just wished she'd be more empathetic, rather than just.. being so self-centred. Ohwell.

Anyhoo, worship in church today was great! Just singing words of praise to the Lord, brings me alot closer to him, and it makes me feel how real his presence is. For the world, may fade away, still my song to you remains, only you will i adore. Even if the world turns against me, his love never fails, and i can be sure to count on him(: and the message today was so apt. About the causes and cures to discouragement.

Causes:
fear
failure
frustration
fatigue.

Cures:
Resist the discouragement
Remember the Lord
(how he has blessed you in the past,
his presence in the present,
and his power in the future)
reorganise your life
rest(:

great is your faithfulness oh God
you wrestle with the sinner's heart
you lead us by still waters and to mercy
and nothing can keep us apart

So remember your people
remember your children
remember your promise oh God

Your grace is enough,
your grace is enough for me.

great is your love and justice God
you use the weak to lead the strong
you lead us in a song of your salvation
and all your people sing along

So remember your people
remember your children
remember your promise oh God

Your grace is enough!(:

school tmr): gotta go by myself! haha lonely lonely. but nvm. right now, i've just gotta be strong, and rely on God's strength. And to whoever out there who's feeling down and discouraged, turn to the Lord, he will lift your spirits up!(:

toodles.

walking across the ocean with you.

didn't go to school today, met linette at 1 at bugis, had a quick lunch at nydc, SO FILLING. after that went over to nlb, but was so crowded, so we sat at hans, where lhb studied her sova while i read brave new world and almost fell asleep. the chocolate mint cake there is terrible. like... not spongy sponge. hahaha i dont know how to describe it also. the texture was just weird... haha. anyway. at about 440, walked back over to bugis to get bubble tea and then back to nlb, where we stoned awhile cus i was still early for tuition.

then crossed over, while lhb went back to the library to study. tuition was as usual, productive and time flew. surprisingly, this is one tuition class which i enjoy. Miss Kon makes lit interesting(: after tuition, met lhb for dinner with rach and bb. didnt eat though, since i felt so guilty from that cheesy nydc meal + bubble tea. they had kfc for dinner. went up to muji where they purchased highlighters etc. something that i'm totally not interested in. am not exactly a stationaryWOW person. hahaha.

took the train home with lhb and bb while rach's dad picked her up. we took nice random spastic photos at kemb station platform, which was quite funny. hahhaa.

OKAY. watching fireworks with lhb at siglap hill tmr(: and studying tgt in the afternoon. I pray that tmr will be a productive day. Gotta do some econs work now.

ciao.

You're so vain, you even think this song is about you,

HAHA, today was quite entertaining, with childish people writing stupid lame and pathetic poststick notes, IN LEFT HAND WRITING, thinking we'd not know you guys did it?! come on, you;re 18, grow up and stop doing such things. will post up the picture of the poststick. it is indeed quite hilarious. can't imagine 18yr olds still doing such things. and throwing tissue at my friend, flipping your ruler at her and then going, OH IM SO SORRY x10, then can i have back my ruler. who are you trying to kid. all these i would have said to you if we had that confrontation. And you guys were the ones who wanted to have that initially, and wait. After school, no one contacted us, and you guys just left. hmm. confrontation, ya right. then again, what a waste of time to talk to people who are so self centred and only know how to criticise, without looking into the mirror. Don't say that my friend bitches about everyone. You;'re no angel, and i'm sure at least 80% of the population of tpjc know the fact that you're the one who does that.

You said that my friends are capable of making the whole class dislike her, but i think you're even MORE CAPABLE, and powerful!! you can make the whole school dislike you(: amazing.

Oh yes and thank you so much for your advice. the 4 of us(yes the balloons) have resolved all misunderstandings! really appreciate your help!((:

Not happy about what i just blogged about? Dont come here then. And don't make speculations about what i'm blogging about. And don't be so self centred to think im blogging about you. just because you think someone's bitching about you, and yadayada. why all these insecurities about yourselves? i think its really silly to MAKE SPECULATIONS ABOUT A BLOG, MY BLOG. sighs.i like to be transparent about stuff,and if i dont like certain people,i'll sure to announce it on my blog,i mean its actually a platform to vent out my angst and make it known if im unhappy with some people or issues if my blog makes you feel unhappy or angsty,then you must be guilty. sounds familiar? haha, don't say i copied you ah! Just using your own words against you. Funny how you think that people shouldnt make speculations about a blog, but you do that when you read mine. Is your mind clear?

okay enough of that.
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School today was rather disruptive, but nonetheless, fun with my balloons. We finally cleared everything up, and realised who the real troublemakers are. OhOh and my ambulance! will post a picture of it later. Studying in the library till late with lhb and BB. JIAYOU ALI LHB BB(: We must not waste time on stupid things like them. lets study hard~!!

later.

I'm always up for taking a chance

Church this morning, followed by study session with jialin cheryl and linette at the esplanade library. reached there at 11plus, studied and then crossed the road for subway at 1. yum. got back at 2, where we continued to mug, with alot of other tjc muggers. yes tjc. oh oh and there was this girl from tjc, she set diagonally across me and she kept reciting out her notes!! got rather annoying. thank god i had my itouch. Feel rather accomplished today. YAY. and tmr, studying till late with lhb and w. shall sleep early tonight since i had only 3 hrs of sleep last night. Late night phone conversations are so addictive.

goodnight!(:

Every time you walk in the room
Can't help myself i wanna be with you
Hit the mic, a quick check one, two
Singing out my lungs just to reach you
I'm alive
And I keep my cool one more time
And you just keep on walking by

I take a day to tell myself It's gonna end up fine
It's all part of some master plan we're all a little lost inside
Even if i run right now
Swore you off
I'd still come back somehow
And here I am now

I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds.

the past week had been fairly fine, with some hardcore mugging with LHB and random friends in the library (at those little cubicles) everyday after school. Longlonglong lit consultations with the various lit teachers, with bigballoons and rachel, though tiring, but nonetheless beneficial and certainly enjoyable. All that laughter and stupid points we come up with, esp during miss fung's consultation at the cafe and we were all brain drained from 2 and a half hours of discussion. Laughed so much at each other, but this is what makes studying meaningful and fun.

I think especially at this point, friends are so important cus they are the ones who are gonna go through this period with you, and encourage you to push on(: When you're tired, they hold you, and tell you, come on you can do it. It helps so much.

friday and today was rather depressing, after all that misunderstandings among us, and to see friendships fall apart, it's sad. And i think some people just need to stay away and mind their own business. We don't need external parties to stir more trouble. Your concern is appreciated, thanks. but i think we can handle this on our own(:

come on girls we can make this work(: too strong for too long.

studying at the esplanade lib tmr with jialin. gotta study hard! prelims in 2 weeks. UGH.

so please let me be free, i can face the truth.

Got home from school late today, stayed in school to study with LHB. man, climo is killing me. i dont get why the winds will blow here and then there and here and there. UGH. haha, Mei Chew didn't come today, so rachel and I just sat at the benches at the side gate t study, and then classmates said suvinder(sp) took attendance in class. tsk, i didnt know she'd take attendance in class. and darn i have 2 absenteeism alerts popping up on my tpjc.net already, for math remedial and friday's gp lesson. irritating. anyway. econs was fine, except when rachel showed me her new red highlighter and then i used in to draw a BIG heart on my tutorial, and after detailing it, looked up to see miss wee's powerful glare. nice one alicia. always getting caught for doodling. haha.

Lunch on sunday was random but nonetheless entertaining, away from the books and school for awhile. Bifei, Ailin, Linette, Edmund and Edwin. The two Es didn't eat though, they were full and color coded. haha.

alright gotta do my econs.

this is my life, routine and monotonous.